numb

Way too painful to describe in words

Way too painful to even talk about

Way too painful to even think about tomorrow and the days after

Way too painful to imagine what could have been

Way too painful to even pretend that it will just go away

baby steps

woke up with an empty feeling in my heart

must have lied in bed staring at the ceiling trying to arrange my thoughts

how do i get through today without any tears and casualties

how long can i pretend that it will be ok

and eventually it really will be ok

baby steps

lick my wounds

and take baby steps

mulu

Syawal 2009

my tears just wont stop flowing from this pain that I feel in my heart. and i ask myself why is it so difficult to move on and start all over again

what happened to that feeling of elation and excitement when you get another chance

and only to be replaced by memories of a broken heart

and to feel the ache so badly that nothing seems to matter anymore

and to close a chapter in my life that meant so much to me but was not meant to be

and to slowly tuck my hopes and wishes away

and to meet the start of every new day on my own

and to feel this emptiness in my heart

and to accept that maybe God has another plan for me

and to be thankful that love has once came and visited me...........

Ramadhan 2009 - merapu volume 2

Time time macam ni baru lah teringat kat arwah atuk dan nenek.

Meriahnya masa dia orang ada

Nenek masak lontong, ayam kicap, lodeh , sambal kacang

kuih raya tak yah cerita la ..bertin tin kat dapur, semua home made.

at least sekali mesti buka puasa kat rumah nenek

ada bubur som som , bubur pulut hitam , kuih kaswi

rindu nya kat nenek...

atuk mesti sibuk beli mercun la bunga api la , air oren la

rindu nya kat atuk...

kita nanti bila dah tak ada .... ada ke cucu nak ingat kat kita?

eh kita ni ada cucu ke ?

merapu vol 1

kenapa selama ni tak de orang cerita jadi boss ni banyak cabaran dan tanggung jawab nye

yang orang tak nampak

tak dengar

tak ambil tahu

tak akan faham

dan yang betul betul sayang kat kita je yang akan sabar dan setia

itu pun ada tarikh lupus

boleh tak benda benda macam ni di ajar dalam kelas

matapelajaran - aplikasi kemahiran hidup

1. camana nak baca ribut kencang daripada bos

2. camana nak abdikan diri kepada kepentingan diri sendiri

3. camana jangan lupa ada yang lebih penting dalam hidup ni selain daripada cari duit

3 days to opening...

what a horibble feeling to hurt your love ones

i would not have meant it and would do it without even knowing it

being the total self absorbed person that i am

and without knowing it

some one somewhere out there will get hurt

why should it matter?

'because love works in the most strangest way'.. i was told

giving up and ignoring it would be the easiest way out

but i have been around long enough to know that

that is not what i want

but i want to know that this is worth my time

after all the sacrifice and effort

and if i dont...

then it will be the

end of life ....

He's just not that into you...

read the book ..saw the movie...

the question is now...

if i am suppose to learn something out of this... that man in general is just not that into me when they really dont give a shit

then



why do i even bother..really

hmmm..

who gives a fuck! get a life and move on.