today I felt a sudden lost that could not be expressed nor described in words. A large void has appeared in my life that could never or ever be filled again in a million years.
to Allah I pray to give me the strength to move on and to give me the wisdom to understand what i cannot change and why it is not meant to be
to guide me to change what is meant for me to change.
to Allah i beg for forgiveness for the sins that i have committed and to him i offer myself as his servant. i don't have the strength to do this on my own.
i am alone now and to You i ask for guidance. to Allah i ask if this is your test, please let me learn from it, let me grow from it and let me see the light at the end of the day.
and through this painful process, if this is what i have to go through, to take me closer to You.
and for all the things that you have blessed me with....if it is not mine to keep, please give it to the ones who deserve it the most
only You will know why and how... lead me and show me the way.
