why

why is it that lately i felt like its so hard to get up and face the day

like there is no reason to go on

like there is nothing to look forward to

like no matter what I do ..things will not be better

like life has finally reach its end

this is so not me

numb

Way too painful to describe in words

Way too painful to even talk about

Way too painful to even think about tomorrow and the days after

Way too painful to imagine what could have been

Way too painful to even pretend that it will just go away