i feel like jacob knowing that bella will never ever chose him , but still habouring that hope that there may be an 'if'
i feel like seeing it with your third eye and knowing that it will not happen but still hanging on to it
i feel stupid and angry because i know and yet chose not to know
i feel anxious because i can't buy anymore time
i feel deep remorse because although it was a good lesson to learn but it was a costly one
i feel aggitated because i know its my own fault
i feel thankful that i was dumb and not a risk taker
i feel sad because i had to pay for my emotional default
i feel cheated by my need and desperation
i feel overwhelmed by how God reveals all that I need to know when its time
