Monday, January 15, 2007

denial

Denial - simple yet strong word. inability to learn and cope with reality. cant face facts just reject it instead. This weekend was all about denying oneself of the one thing you would just die to have but just wont allow yourself to admit it. I am not talking about buying a handbag or a pair of shoes here...just plain indulgence in loving some one so badly but just refusing to admit it. or admit but refuse to see how serious it is. or admit and acknowledge its seriousness but refuse to take responsibility.

sigh..i see it happening everywhere..like a common disease spreading... one of mygirlfriends just shed a tear last week end for refusing to admit that she is heart broken and he was not into her to begin with... another friend just refuse to open her heart to one of the most eligible bachelors in town so that she can save herself the hassle of getting over him in case he dumps her...one of my bestfriends becomes confused for loving a girl for so long and suddenly not knowing what to do when she loves him too and just walk away.

denial so simple yet so strong...childish yet mature in its conflicts. and yet i too embrace it with open arms consciously or subconsciously. i too find it difficult to handle reality especialy the painful ones. i too love and continue to love and yet refuse to accept it for what ever reason that may be.

we justify our actions as correct and blame others. denial.

we lie to cover our pain.denial

we refuse to or avoid thinking about or understanding someone or their behaviour. denial

1 comment:

Amirperfume (AP Network Enterprise - SA0215574-P) said...

Something bout denial from tv series Grey's anatomy -
The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we’re tired; we deny we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed and most importantly we deny that we’re in denial. only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth…right in front of our faces. Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is cage. Not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial … and face the world head on gun’s blazing. Denial. It’s not just a river in Egypt. It’s a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it? ~204

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